you’re what i want and it pisses the fuck out of me when i can’t have you. it kills me to watch you go for those girls who i know can never care and love for you like i did. i hate that i can’t forget you.
even though i see you everyday, i still miss you.
just hurts.
there’s so much going on in my life right now, the stress of you, the stress of everything. i’m hurtin mad, i used to be able to talk to you about my problems and you’d be there to cheer me up or tell me its ok, im here. but ever since then, i dont have you anymore and i’m really fked cause i’ve been so used to just having you there when i need it that when i actually really need you, you aren’t here for me anymore. and it just hurts cause you meant so much to me but i couldn’t mean enough to you. you never once tried, and never will you ever. it just hurts thats all, knowing this
it’s about time i finally let go of what used to be and live for the future rather than the past.
i’m hurting and it’s a feeling i can’t control. it’s undeniable and i hate myself for it. i hate that you’ve affected me the way you have, i hate how you’ve changed me, i hate what i’ve become because of you..
this isn’t me, yet i can’t help but be.
